i’ve been thinking about suicide everyday for months now, but don’t worry I would never ever act on it. these past few days especially though, being quarantined in this house is really pushing me. I don’t want to be around abusive people and force myself to try to be okay, I don’t want to feel like this constantly or go through any more yelling, throwing, and hitting. Im trying really hard to be optimistic and look forward to moving out and graduating high school and heading to college but everything has gotten exponentially worse. Im worried that when I get kicked out on my 18th birthday in less than a year, I’ll have nowhere to go and have nothing to my name since they recently made me leave my job. Hopefully by that time something will work out, but until then the daily abuse is really getting to me and making it hard to be optimistic