Sometimes it feels like my anxiety and my sadness has become what represents me.
I feel strange and misplaced when I’m happy for a longer period of time than I’m used to and I become irritable and paranoid quickly, as well as uneasy…I feel like this is the reason why I always end up doing something that damages my relationship- I’m self-destructive and I say and do things that hurt me and without actually meaning to, my partner as well…It makes me wonder if my actions say that I’m not actually in love with him because I don’t act like the ‘ideal’ girlfriend and I’m rash and not the kindest…Or maybe I do love him and I just need to learn how to cope with this…
I’m scared of change- this is all I know.
