Im in love with my teacher. We have had a good relationship till now . No one knows about it . Some other students assume that there is something but they dont know the full extent of how close i am to him .

We do realise we have a lot of differences between us . And some of these differences are not things that can be brushed away . When we got into this relationship we didnt think much , we did this because it was just in the moment sort of thing . However now , things are going out of hands .

He wants to have kids , marriage and a life . And those arnt things i can give him right now . Because of this , our relationship has gone from being my happy place to my worst nightmare.

Every day makes me feel drained. He talk to me only because i am stubborn and i refuse to give up. And to him , i feel like me being there or not doesnt matter . Despite knowing this i cant seem to get away from this . Despite him not making an effort to talk to me i still do . And i know how pathetic it is .

And because of this relationship i am unable to find a guy from my age. Tbh, there are guys who are into me , but because they are not him i cant seem to show interest in any of them.