This is not a confession, this is something I go through that I do not know how to deal with, the house I’m living in is trapping me in, it’s like a prison, I do not have any way of connecting with the outside world, the people inside the house are the only people I see or talk to, but they’re very toxic, so I’d rather stay in my room, but staying inside all day, on a daily basis, is quite depressing, I might have an internet connection, but it doesn’t really matter, it doesn’t help me with anything except waste my time, I’m not fond with social media, even though that might be the only way I can actually connect with people, I still can’t do that, I’m not allowed to take pictures/selfies and post them anywhere, or I’d be in serious trouble, so how could I use social media, to gain relationships with people? I also don’t have a sim card, since I finished high school I have lost contact with the few friends I had while in school, yet I’m not allowed to get a sim card, even tho I’m an adult, I get treated like this, I don’t have a say in anything that has to do with me, I can’t wear anything but dresses or skirts, long ones, of course, I was never allowed to get a job either, they never let me get a job, but at teh same time they won’t give me money, and they expected me to be fine just that way, I can’t complain or tell anyone about this because they wouldn’t understand, since its very usual and normal for girls to live the way I do, here where I live, but I’m not planning on wasting my life living like this, but if I want things to actually change, I need to know where to begin, I don’t have any role models or people who I look up to when it comes to this since I’ve never seen someone escape from it, so, I have no idea what I’m supposed to do, I do not want much, all I really want is to see the world, to see people and just be happy with the life im living, rather than wishing death every two seconds.