Hey sweet young thing (in her late 20’s) it might not have seemed like I cared much, or aced like I was not interested but believe me, BELIEVE ME when I “try” like I did with you a few times, believe me, I really cared. If I failed to let you see it or know it, it was more to protect my interests in you because I believe that at all times, someone is out to mess up what is important to me. Do you know what I mean? I think you do and you also damn well know there were a few times you f****** hurt me. You saw it with your own eyes, and if I didn’t give a s*** it wouldn’t have. You also know that. If I don’t give a s***, I don’t give a s***. It makes me a tough SOB to break.

There was a time where you grabbed my hand and stood there in front of me looking down at it in front of other people all around and I know would disagree or object to us or want to ruin it, just because. The fact that you yourself did that in front of these people kind of blew me away TBH. It was one of those things that got me. I would’ve stood there all night, but my point is, I guard mine, what is important to me. Sometimes that ends up looking like I don’t care and in this case I realized recentl it did me no good trying to protecting my interests. Right?

If you had given me some time alone together, you would have seen I was crazy for you and grateful for the time. You are not going to experience that in the situations we’ve been in with The people we were around.

Also, I am over things from long before we met. Long over them. But it’s hard to forget them when people keep dragging them back to me. I’m sure it’s all b******* too. Reality is a much different thing than what people other than her and I know but I am done with that, and anything connected to it in any way.

Truly. I was hoping you could’ve helped me some. Maybe make all that bs worth it a bit