My bf’s ex died. I think he’s still in love with her. The funeral is today. I resent him for how he’s been treating me. He ignores me when he’s stressed and it triggers my childhood trauma. I have been resisting buying a gun for these last few days. I don’t think this relationship can last. I resent his treatment of me. It’s like the Mark Show. He’s nice in some ways, though. Also, I have a lot of trauma I’ve suffered every type of abuse except being hit. Lots of s*****, psychological and neglect. I’m really fucked up inside and I need someone who can reassure and comfort me. He’s not that person. He’s like another one of them. A blank piece of paper. Emotionally repressed. I’m in pain and I’m worried I will lash out so I’m going to smoke weed. I have a bad weed problem like I pawn s*** just to smoke. But..that’s the price I have to pay when the meds are not enough
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After reading this i believe both of you have issues that need treatment. I too have been abused in every way including physically and i understand that pain very well, i am currently in therapy over my issues because it has caused me to have PTSD and other deep issues. two sick people are not healthy for each other. He needs to work out his issues as do you, he may be grieving and in a lot of pain and he may have never received closure at the end of his past relationship. At this point of time you need to worry about you because he can not help you or be there for you at the moment.
After i responded to you i realized that you too may have PTSD due to all the abuse you had to deal with, i would seek help and figure out how deep the damage is and get yourself right, this will take time but one day you will look back on this and be grateful that you started the long road to healing
Thank you
Well, there is no longer any competition there, you don’t have to compete in his feelings for his ex who is now dead – bonus.
Therapy – you have got to be kidding right?
The reason you have PTSD is because of the therapy and not because of what you say happened to you.
All you have achieved is to allow a trick cyclist to get into your pockets and fleece you of whatever money they can screw you for and if you think you are going to be mentally healed at the end of your treatment, I’d be inclined to wonder if you will ever be able to remove this emotional tick (therapist) you have allowed to get mental control over you and your feelings and the people who you will hurt from what your therapist implants into your head instead, as part of your “cure”.
When you take into account that your therapist is probably a psychologist, who was not clever or intelligent enough, to become a medical doctor and had the same level of education as your hairdresser, but chose a different career path instead, then I’d no more want your therapist to cut my hair, than I would want your hairdresser to be my therapist.
The first piece of advice in the psychologists book of how to be a good psychologist is: Pull your shoulders back – really!!
The guy who writes the books which psychologists study to become psychologists is 54 years old and he went from psychology classes to university, to university, to university where he now is and there is no suggestion he ever practiced being a therapist in the Wiki blurb on him, or that he earned his living that way – so what does that suggest about your therapist clone of him?
Good luck with that!!