I just need to vent here. Not much of a confession I suppose. I have many siblings, but I have this sister who is two years younger than me. I feel that I’m constantly overshadowed by her. This isn’t her fault of course, it’s just one of my biggest insecurities. For so long I felt that I’m the forgotten one. People remember her name. People remember the things she’s accomplished. People don’t forget her. But they forget me. For a time I had separate friends from her. That was a time when I felt that people knew me. People remembered me. I wasn’t overshadowed. I was someone to those people. But eventually my sister became friends with my friends, which didn’t bother me at first. I share friends with my older sister and have never felt insecure about it. But that wasn’t the case for my younger sister. I now feel that my friends overlook me. I feel they just see me as her sister now. Not their friend. Their friend’s sister. That’s what I am. I feel that they prefer her over me. I think they only keep me around because of her. And now I feel overlooked by everyone. My family, friends, teachers. I’m simply a lesser version of my sister. I’m not as pretty. I’m not as intelligent. I’m not as funny. I’m not as sociable. I’m just her sister. But she’s her.
