I was having a five month affair with a much younger married woman (24 years younger). She’s a head turner, smart, affectionate and sweet and it was like a drug high, massive highs and big lows when we were apart. We tried to stop so many times both being wracked with guilt. Now an old girlfriend has come to stay with for three months. She’s closer to my age (51) and still beautiful but I can’t get this younger woman out of my head. We stopped the affair but I half wish she’ll realise she’s with the wrong man and leave him for me. I feel guilty encouraging this old girlfriend to travel halfway around the world to give it another shot but I was desperate to move on to a healthy relationship and give the younger woman a chance to fix things in her marriage. But the truth is I want to have babies with this girl, I even love her family and wish we could just be together everyday.