I’m sorry for all I’ve done to you, I’m sorry. I know sorry doesn’t cut it anymore and that the amount of times I’ve had a second chance have all been ever so slightly worse than the last. I would go back and fix everything in a heartbeat, I would take the pain you had from hurting yourself and put it on me but multiply it by how many times I hurt you previous. I’d kill my self just to make you happy, sadly doing that won’t. So we are both at this place of sadness that can’t be solved, that is if you’re sad after you blocked me on everything. I probably am just pathetic for saying all of this, pathetic for asking how your day was, pathetic for saying goodnight…pathetic for saying I love you. I just miss you is all. I just have no friends. You were my last one. I just don’t want to go through another day alone. Maybe one day we can try again? If I’m here for that day. I’m sorry for everything I’ve done to you. I’m sorry I still was excited to watch that movie with you, to go to the Christmas market with you, to go on trips with you. I just wish we felt how we felt this time last year, happy. I’m willing to wait a month and try again, a year and try again, but you won’t confirm that. So I don’t know if there’s another try ever. I’m just lost. I’m scared. I’m alone, once again.