I feel like all I do anymore is overthink everything and hurt my own feelings. I’ve been so caught up on my ex and why he stayed with me for as long as he did. And I always jump to the conclusion that he was just using me. It may just be in my head, but I’ll never be able to confirm or deny that. I can’t just ask him “hey, you didn’t just f*** me and tell me you love me to get a roof over your head and food in your stomach right?”. It sounds so absurd, but knowing where he came from, it’s really not that hard to believe.