when I was a sophomore in college 15 years ago I was roofied and apparently raped but I’ve never told anyone about it… I just woke up Completely naked in a shady motel room 15 miles north of campus… I had no idea how I got there. No phone no purse nothing I didn’t even remember Anything from the night before…
None of my clothes were there. No underwear. No shoes. No purse. No phone.
I couldn’t call anyone because I can’t remember numbers for anything!
So I didn’t know who to call at all
I called the front desk girl and told her what happened and she said nobody had rented that room in over a week … so then I was even more confused… the name who rented was a woman’s I didn’t recognize so that couldn’t be it…
The girl at the front desk was very understanding and said she’d check the list and found to bring me some clothes …
She found me some grey yoga pants and pink cropped sweat shirt that looked like something someone from an 1980s workout video would wear – That and then a pair of men’s dress shoes someone had left that were like 3 sizes too big for me – but I needed shoes so I took them – I didn’t have any socks or underwear or a bra but I didn’t care.
I went to call the police and make a report …
But I didn’t know anybody’s name
I could not remember where I was or where I had been – I didn’t even think I had gone out to a bar or anything.
There were no witnesses from the cheap motel and they didn’t have any cameras in that back lot
I didn’t even know where I had been the day before and my roommate had left earlier in the week because she was done with her exams
So yeah it was pretty awful …
When I was late on my period that next month I couldn’t stop crying
I was trying to talk myself out of getting an abortion for 4 more weeks over Christmas break
I was emotionally wrecked but I didn’t tell anybody
I never told my mother of anyone about any of it
Not about the r***
Nothing about being roofied
Nothing about the abortion
Nothing. I’ve told nobody who knows me what happened to me
Today is the anniversary date