Don’t pay attention to the things that might sound like this or that. I literally am falling asleep in the public transport, at the library, I am very tired.
It is not what made me tired but who.
I am afraid of things in the air, things I don’t have physical grasp of. So when I get a slightest hint about that, that someone might hurt me, I lose all my mental and physical energy to try to prevent it. For what?
I didn’t ask for it.

I am sick of people who are trying to decribe my life. They can not do it cause I am not that retarded. Not as close. My mind is somewhere else.

I feel there is a certain connection with my neighbourhood Noah, but I am not sure of what it is to be since I don’t believe whom I am talking too.
Even hating him, I have always admired him. That is rare. To admire someone that much. But then, I don’t want to have to pass through another trauma. I was as never weak and as sleepy as I am now.
And he did it again. I feel like ghosts are influencing things they shouldn’t be. I live pretty lonely but healthy life, toxic ppl are not anywhere near anymore.
Also, I don’t know where are you on your life path because I think I will not take what I have now. After, to be friends was never a problem and it is very welcomed.