Almost a year ago I ended my friendship with my best friend of two years. It was mainly because lines had been crossed and my trust in him was gone. At the time when I ended things, I just felt fucked over and hurt. I’ll admit the first few months were some of the most painful and challenging I’ve ever had to face. From going from telling him everything and talking every hour of the day to complete radio silence, was pure hell on the earth for me. But since then I’ve had a lot of time for self reflection and growth, even as hard as it was, I wouldn’t change it for the world. Looking back at it now, I needed that time to take care of myself and do some self discovery. He ended up texting me a few months later, asking how I was doing or some s*** like that, I didn’t respond because I was still angry. Up until Monday, I hadn’t heard anything more. Surprisingly enough when I saw that notification, I didn’t have the urge to just throw my phone at brick wall. Is it weird that I just don’t give a s*** anymore, nor do I have the time for this? A majority of my hurt and anger that I had towards him has faded. I can honestly say that I have no feelings of ill will towards him and only have nothing but love and respect for the guy. Yet I have no desire to ever pursue any kind of relationship with him again. I feel like I’ve moved on with my life whereas maybe he hasn’t. Do I ignore him? Do I not ?
