The problem with having a psychological issue is that I cannot afford it lmao. Like I need therapy. But I can’t afford a good therapist. I can only afford the hacks that literally used spark notes to pass their s***. They listen but they don’t hear what you say. They just give you the runaround and prescribe pills that make you a zombie. Let me tell you, I f****** hate feeling the way that I do. But what I hate even more than that is the inability to feel at all. And the ones that do “work” without causing this cause f****** vivid nightmares. So it’s like I have a choice between feeling nothing, being normal and sleep deprived due to the fear of falling asleep, or spend 90% of the time depressed and having the ability to fall asleep wherever I want. It’s not fair.