I’m a junior in high school. My boyfriend is a senior. He got accepted to a college that’s a good distance away from me. It’s not out of state but I’ll be seeing him a lot less. I’m so happy for him but at the same time I’ll be alone when he graduates. He’s the only person I’ve really stuck with and seeing him go is really scaring me. My cousin hangs out with me a lot and tries to keep me company but she’s trying to move out of state as soon as she can. She’s a senior in high school as well. I’m scared of losing her, too. I don’t really have friends. The friends I had either moved away or we just drifted apart. I tried to mentally prepare myself for this sort of thing but facing it is a lot different. I’m going to be alone for the rest of highschool. I know that’s not the worst thing in the world but it still makes me depressed. I have social anxiety disorder so it’s not like I can just go up to a random group of people and suddenly be friends with them. I’m too scared of people. I’ve only got one year left but I’d hoped I could spend it with someone I trust before I have to face adult life. I’m painfully shy so it’s not easy for me to make friends. I’m so scared of losing the only people I have left. I don’t want to be alone but I’m so scared of people. I hope I don’t lose them.
