My anxiety says she is going to break up with me soon. I know that probably isnt true. She hasn’t said anything like that but I’ve been so difficult the past 2 or 3 days that I cant fight the thought that she is sick of it and is going to break up with me. I know I could try and convince myself that it’s all in my head and it’s just my anxiety but what if it isnt? And I make myself feel better just to have the rug pulled out from under me? I wish i hadn’t brought up the thing that she did that bothered me. I regret it. Did i sound short with her when we got off the phone the other night? I know she is busy with work but i wish she would call or text me for a minute. Cant ask for that though, need to give her space. Must fight and control myself. If i havent lost her yet i need to make sure i dont do something that will push it over the line. That’s my fucking anxiety this week. And i hate it.
