Ever since losing my cat, my lifes just gone downhill. I work a job I hate for minimum wage as I drown in grief and depression despite it having been a year since then. I have several panic attacks daily but can’t afford therapy or anything. I have a fiance I love but they don’t provide physical affection or companionship like my cat did. I don’t think I’ll live to my next birthday. Death is just so much easier then pain.