I “hooked up” with a girl almost a decade ago I met while visiting a friend. She had told me she was on birth control and it was okay. She also said she wanted a relationship and not just a fling. It was consensual. We did not use protection. After we were done. She asked me where I came. I freaked out and thought she was lying about being on birth control and left and did not speak to her again. My friend told me she was mad after I left because she didn’t want a one-night stand but that “it’s all good” and don’t worry. I took what he said at face value and never looked back on it. Over the years, he would make little quips and remarks when I would bring up her name that would make me wonder if there was something else about her he was afraid to tell me. I never gave it much thought though. Until now. Seeing everything on the news about Kavanaugh and all that, it made me wonder if she (A) made an accusation against me because she was mad that I left or (B) felt like because I ditched her like that, she felt was justified to say that I r*ped her. Which is absolutely not true. My friend did keep pressuring her and me to do it. But after him and his girlfriend went to bed, she then invited me into the room and told me to take my pants off. My mind won’t let this go and I don’t know what to do. I fear someday some sort of revenge accusation either has been made and will catch up to me, or will be made. I freak out because I wonder if she had my s**** and what she would have done with it.
