There's this guy who's been my friend for the past year. he's a lot unlike me, and i was continually wondering how we became such good friends. I'm not

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There’s this guy who’s been my friend for the past year. he’s a lot unlike me, and i was continually wondering how we became such good friends. I’m not like the girls here, i’m more of a tomboy, and i don;t really like wearing my emotions on my sleeve. and this guy looks like one of those ppl ready to beat up anyone in their way, or something, but in reality he’s a big softie. he melts if i yell at him or forget to say goodnight on the phone. a really big softie. we used to sms each other a lot, and he always ended the conversation with a GOodnight, Luv u. i figured that was just friendly, cos even though he tells me i’m really important to him, and all that, he’s also raving about the girl he’s in love with, who happens to have rejected him and is dating his friend.he always used to tell me that he wants our relationship to be platonic and i accepted that gladly, because i don’t think i could stand being in a relationship with him, i’d probably kill him, cos he takes even the smallest careless thing i say straight to heart. but sometimes i felt like he was using me as a replacement for that other girl. and then he’d say something nice, and i’d curse myself for being a b****. somehow we gradually began talking less. both of us withdrew into ourselves a bit. and he began grumbling about how i never talk, when all he wanted me to do in the beginning was listen to him.now we’ve both returned to college after the holidays, when we’d been rather out of touch. once i came online and he was there, and he told me something along the lines of ‘I’m feeling really lonely, i really need you here.’i came back hoping to meet him right away. but i’ve been here a week, and he hasnt spoken to me once. he was online once and i said hi, but he didnt go beyond the barest civilities, and signed off soon…and annoyed as i could be with him being so blatantly emotional, i realise i miss him. a lot. and my pride tells me not to go begging him to talk to me again, cos i’m certain i’ve done nothing wrong. but i dont like losing friends, and it doesnt feel good when he walks past me pretending i dont exist.
Advice, please?

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After my dad passed away me and my mother took a trip back to Ohio so I could drop her off at her sister’s house.. I got to saint louis missouri and we couldn’t find a hotel to say at so I pull over in a rest area and parked in the back. We both got in the back of the van and fell asleep. I woke up wet so I opened up the back of the van and took all my clothes off. I woke up my mother and she did the same. She laid back down and I got in behind her and I got a hard on. My mother put her hand back behind her and knew I had one. I started playing with her t*** and then her c***. She said I don’t think we should be doing this
I told her that both of us needed this. She rolled over on her back and I got on top of her and she put me inside her. I started off slow and then fast. I could tell she was c******. Then again and then again. That’s when I put myself really deep inside her and came. It felt so good c****** inside her. We talked about it the rest of the way and said that we should do it more when she comes back home. And then she tells me that dad and her knew about the guy up the street making movies with me and his daughter. I didn’t think any one knew about that. There was even times that me and him had s**. I would s*** him off and he did the same to me. Mostly it was me and his daughter having s**. Mom said that her and dad would watch us. They were looking thru holes in the wall and after he was done mom and dad had s** with the wife and him. Mom said that she has all the tapes. I said even the ones that me and him having s**
She said yes and the ones of you and he’s wife. She said that dad help him sell a lot of them to people. Mom said she had copies of all of them. She would show me were they are when she comes home. I played a couple of them and she had all of them. Even ones with mom and dad having s** with them. Mom asked me if I enjoyed being with him. I told her yes I did. It was fun sucking him off and him c****** I’m my mouth. He did c** a lot. They moved away and mom and dad never saw them again.

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