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I was raped. It all started when i was 3 years old. Its a slight fade but i remember my older brother laying on top of me. When i was 5 i remember him doing it every single night. He told me oneday to put my dolls pants on. Then he told my twin brother to not go in the room. He told me “do you want it from the back or the front” i shrugged and he said “ok ill do both”. He would go down on me and tell me “this is called a tornado”. This would go on for years (3-11). My mom would always be out and she would leave him to take care of me. Ive always was a heavy sleeper so i would wake up to him already doing it. I also have a lot of sleep paralysis when I was a little girl so what made it harder for me to move. He was like 230 pounds and i was like 30 pounds so as you can see theres not much for me to do. He would hit me and tell me “im doing this because i love you”. I was traumatized for many years. I would always wear baggy clothes have my hair down covering my face and always have a blanket covering my whole body in my head. I would tell everybody don’t look at me. I tried telling my sister and my mom when i was 7 but they thought i was lying just for attention. At night i would sleep in between my mom and my twin. He would pull my legs to his side of the room and rape me in my sleep and i remember waking up and him telling me to put my underwears on. He would make me cup noodles and tell me he would cum in it and made me eat it. He would get my hand wrap it around his penis and jack off with it , all his cum would be on my hands. He would kiss my stomach and go up to my boobs to my neck and tried kissing me but I always moved my head. He would show me pictures of girls in his wallet and tell me that he fucked them really good and then tell me that he loves me more than them. When I grew older like 10 years old I would get out of my house sit on my front porch and wait till my mom got back but sometimes she wouldn’t come back. Every time my mom would leav

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  • This sounds like something that nobody should have to go through and I’m sorry that this happened to you for so long. I hope that you are able to live your life away from this person now. I know from experience how damaging these kinds of experiences can be, so just know that you are worth so much more than how he made you feel.

    Anonymous July 13, 2018 11:50 pm Reply
  • Honestly this is disgusting, don’t post this everywhere, no one needs these sins .

    Anonymous July 14, 2018 12:47 am Reply
    • Go kill yourself asshole, this is so insensitive and disgusting. Fuck off of this earth.

      Anonymous July 14, 2018 12:48 am Reply
      • People like you disgust me, don’t listen to him honey, what your brother did was wrong in so many ways, and people like this are insensitive. You should run away as far as possible away from these type of people including your brother.

        Anonymous July 14, 2018 12:50 am Reply
  • Oh my gosh that is horrible! I almost vomit this is not right I am so sorry this happend to you :(. -NMSA

    Anonymous July 14, 2018 1:02 am Reply
  • i hope you are better now. i’m so sorry this happened to you

    Anonymous July 14, 2018 8:07 am Reply
  • Get angry, kill him

    Anonymous July 15, 2018 4:38 am Reply
  • I sorry for you I’m sorry but I don’t feel things so for some reason I can read this without feeling anything.
    Good luck I’m sorry

    Anonymous July 15, 2018 7:21 am Reply

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