I was raped. It all started when i was 3 years old. Its a slight fade but i remember my older brother laying on top of me. When i was 5 i remember him doing it every single night. He told me oneday to put my dolls pants on. Then he told my twin brother to not go in the room. He told me “do you want it from the back or the front” i shrugged and he said “ok ill do both”. He would go down on me and tell me “this is called a tornado”. This would go on for years (3-11). My mom would always be out and she would leave him to take care of me. Ive always was a heavy sleeper so i would wake up to him already doing it. I also have a lot of sleep paralysis when I was a little girl so what made it harder for me to move. He was like 230 pounds and i was like 30 pounds so as you can see theres not much for me to do. He would hit me and tell me “im doing this because i love you”. I was traumatized for many years. I would always wear baggy clothes have my hair down covering my face and always have a blanket covering my whole body in my head. I would tell everybody don’t look at me. I tried telling my sister and my mom when i was 7 but they thought i was lying just for attention. At night i would sleep in between my mom and my twin. He would pull my legs to his side of the room and r*** me in my sleep and i remember waking up and him telling me to put my underwears on. He would make me cup noodles and tell me he would c** in it and made me eat it. He would get my hand wrap it around his p**** and j******* with it , all his c** would be on my hands. He would kiss my stomach and go up to my b**** to my neck and tried kissing me but I always moved my head. He would show me pictures of girls in his wallet and tell me that he fucked them really good and then tell me that he loves me more than them. When I grew older like 10 years old I would get out of my house sit on my front porch and wait till my mom got back but sometimes she wouldn’t come back. Every time my mom would leav