Have you ever turned down the opportunity of being in a relationship with someone you actually loved because you didn’t love yourself enough and you thought it was a problem they had that they liked you and not someone else for you aren’t deserving enough to have love reciprocated?
I did this. It’s been a year and i haven’t gotten over them because it was the first and only time i felt genuine love for someone and i let them go because i was scared of intimacy. I thought i was ugly. I thought i was extremely imperfect. And if i let them see through my pores, one day they will leave me. So i told them i hated them only to realise after all this time that it was self hatred.
It surely helped them, they moved on. I somehow didn’t. I somehow can’t. It still hurts to this day.