I committed a terrible crime (spent five years in prison and was recenlty released). Not only do I feel guilty for what I did, but no one wants to support me. I ruined my whole life. My mom and my twin sister want nothing to do with me. Nobody does anymore, really. I excelled in college before this incident and I can’t even go back. To be honest, the only thing I want right now is to hug somebody. I haven’t been loved or hugged in 6 years and I just want to be hugged so badly it hurts. I wish people could spend some of the energy they use to humiliate and hurt me into loving me. But I’m afraid I will be humiliated my whole life.
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What was it that you did if it turned even your family against you?
Drinking too much one night and a sex assault. I’m embarrassed to admit that to anyone. How will I ever explain that to a girlfriend or wife? I can barely hold a job and I’m so scared. I’m only 25 and am going through a living hell.
Kallista oma ema.
Hmmm, a life ruined in exchange for a soul selfishly desecrated. Seems only fair. Good luck explaining your future partners how you took someone’s body and devoured it whole for your own entertainment. I can never understand how you complete animals think it’s remotely fine to do this to anyone, no matter how high you are.
This is karma. You reap what you sow
As horrid against your victim this sounds, I would give you that hug. Not because I’d any way condone or could accept you doing such a disgusting act towards someone, but because you are another human, and you’re in pain. My best friend was raped when she was 14. I almost got raped when I was 17. I would still extend you love, because I’m not in this world to pass judgement. I’m in this world to soothe the aching.
What you said means a lot to me. It gives me hope for my future. I’m sorry you and your friend had to go through those experiences. Nobody should have to. I would give anything to take back what I did.
Wishing you all the best. Thank you.
Despite everything, you’re still a human being.
As hard as it may be. You’re going to have to move on without them. They can’t forgive you but YOU can forgive yourself. Move away, find other people to bring in your inner circle and leave the past behind you.
i think it is telling that you preface the fact that you sexually assaulted someone with “drinking too much one night…” and it is sad. you cant diminish what you did by saying you were drunk.
I’m sorry. Nothing can diminish what I did. I honestly wish I could tell her how sorry I am but I can’t legally contact her for 10 years. I cry about this every day. I wish I was never born. How could I have been so cruel?
People are so ignorant in this world. You deserve a fucking hug. At least you didn’t kill someone. You just sexually assulted someone while you were drunk. It’s not the end of the fucking world people.
Just matter of time. Things will change, believe it. Be good and Do good for now.
you sound like you truly do feel bad for what you did in the past. And yes saying ”I was drunk” to diminish what you did is wrong. But it is also wrong for others to keep punishing you like this. At the end of the day you do feel sorry ( I know a sorry doesn’t fix everything but it’s an attitude). Maybe try helping out charities or join a club to interact with new people who don’t know about your past? That will help. Forgiving someone is hard and if someone does forgive you in the future that person has a big damn heart.
Have a hug, mate. You know what you did was wrong, and you did the time. Now you can start again. Don’t listen to some of the idiots on here.