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I’m the sloppy second for all of my friends. 70% of the times one of their relationships doesn’t end well I sleep with their ex. This has been going on for a decade so I don’t even know how to date anymore. I just wait until a breakup and know I’m going to get laid for a few weeks until the girl moves on. I hate myself for this. I can’t form a meaningful relationship with anyone anymore because I’ve conditioned myself this way. I wish I weren’t so fucked in the head that this seems normal to me.

My first real romantic relationship came from destroying an abusive one. It seems to have imprinted on me that I need to be the first guy there to play white knight and rescue the damsel. But in reality I’m just an opportunistic a****** preying on the emotional.

That first broken relationship lasted five years, and I’m still chasing after the emotional high of saving somebody. That relationship also ended 12 years ago. Now on the cusp of being 32 years old, I’m realizing how I’ve fucked up the chances of any serious relationship by chasing that same feeling (and girl) from when I was 16.

Matters aren’t helped by the fact the first love helped me find my current job and I have to see her every day. I’m literally chasing a memory of who somebody used to be while talking to them daily and nightly trying to f*** my buddies ex girlfriend.

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  • This is kind of messed up. You just need to change your ways. Find a girl a normal way. If you cannot stop chasing this “high” you will only continue to find disappointment.

    Anonymous April 20, 2018 10:02 pm Reply

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