I cut myself almost every day on my upper arm. It’s the way I deal with the pain and loneliness I feel every day and a sort of punishment I give myself because I feel I deserve it. I often consider committing suicide.
I know this might sound very horrid but I feel like the only way I could feel somewhat better is if I had a boyfriend that would abuse me or just take advantage of me whether that be s******* or in any other way.
I think I am a very deeply damaged gold but I can’t seem to force myself to change.
