when I was 14 (or 13 I don’t really remember) I made my little brother that was around 8 years old s*** my d*** (I did it by telling him to do it in return for letting him use my phone for games) and it still haunts me to this day (turning 18 soon).
I wish I could undo it. The guilt that he might have psychological issues because of me haunts me all the time even after that long of a time.
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Kids mess around like that, so don’t worry. The fact that you’re feeling guilty about it is proof that it was kids just messing around, rather than you maliciously leading him to do something harmful (something that would be abnormal). I say that because everyone (me included) has an experience like that. I’m a girl and mine was with my older sister and neither of us mentioned it until she suddenly apologized to me in tears about it. I didn’t hold it against her, and I think our relationship is good despite that. It’s just a little embarrassing, but like I said. Everyone’s got an experience like that.
The only situation where it would be abnormal is if it was 100% forced and crossed the line (like rape). Kids trading toys or games for messing around sexually is a milestone in their development. Do your best not to feel bad about it! You didn’t do anything wrong, and it’s totally normal.