I feel guilty because when I was a boy women smoking used to really turn me on, the buzz that used to make other people focused used to make me really h****. I loved the fact that I didn’t smoke and it was bad for me, yet when I saw a woman do it and breathed her smoke it would make me crazy. Even though at the time I just started high school it made me so h**** that I fantasized about a woman kidnapping and r***** me, even penetrating me. Am I fucked up? I feel like I’m such a s*** but i’m not. Could use someone to talk to
