I had suicidal thoughts since three years old. The worst sin in the Catholic Church is to commit suicide. I was persecuted by outside religions for being Catholic faith. I tried slitting my artery vein when I was eleven. I had started my menstral at age eleven. I had several suicide attempts since age fifteen because I was mistreated because of the color of my skin. I told my therapist that I’m unhappy with my life and if I died I would not have to experience the pain they’d bring upon me. I ask God for forgiveness for my sins. My purpose on life was to see how much racial hatred I could take.
