So, I been in a relationship with this guy for about 5 months now. Before that, I used to have a thing with this another guy. Let’s call him “B” and my boyfriend is “A”. B and I is just an online friend, but we kind of fell in love together. I don’t mind committing into long distance relationship with him and unfortunately, it’s the opposite for him. I kept having feelings for him despite him asking me not to because there is no point, he said. He would date me if distance wasn’t the problem. But, until he told me he had feelings for this girl in his class. I was sad and kind of ghosted on him, trying to move on I guess. He didn’t bother though. Since I was so desperately trying to move on, I found A and he was wonderful. I was deep in love with him. In 2 months relationship with A, B messaged me and apologised for being selfish and all. We both agreed to stay as close friend, I tend to rant a lot of things to him basically. These days, A didn’t treat me as good as he was when we first met. It makes me sad kind of. B comforted me and I don’t know why I started to have feelings for him again. I can’t help but to stare at his pictures and fell in love with him all over again.
I just feel guilty for A when I’m feeling this way… I still love A but B seems like he hold a special place in my heart. What should I do? I know this is not a best place to ask for advice but I just want to let things out.
