I have a crush on a guy, a guy who is 23 and is my cousin. I am a minor, and we have a big age difference. I know that my attraction is wrong and immoral, and I completely agree with that. I am not going to act on my attraction and I have been trying to stay away from him as much as I possibly can.
Though, I have thought…nasty thoughts about him. I’ve masturbated thinking about him, and thought about him pulling me into a bathroom and f****** me hard, during a football party. Or, him coming over to my house to babysit me, while my parents and sister are away, and him teasing and punishing me, then
f****** me real rough.
I’m not going to act on it, and I’m going to try my best to get over him, since I’m good at getting over people.
