Today is Wednesday and I haven’t gone school for 3 days straight and last week was even worse. My absence from classes is so high and I think the next time I step my foot in school my mentor will come up to me to talk about it.

My friends stopped asking me if I’ll come to class today because they know I won’t.

My mom came into my room and I told her that I will go to school after lunch. She told me “ why are you even going to school if it’s only for 2 hours?”

Why? I don’t know.

I guess I’m tired of all this. I don’t wanna do anything. I’m gonna die one day so why bother making something out of it? Why is school so hard and why are idiots teaching me?

Elders think that school today is better than before. Yeah it is but it’s still bad.
The school system was “structured” like that so that people can work better in industries. The majority of us don’t do that anymore.

I wanted to become a math teacher because I like math and I wanted to show to people that math isn’t that hard if you look at it from your perspective.

But now I don’t even know. I am a “science high school” student ( it’s a thing in Sweden) and I choose that because this program has the highest math classes including the other science classes (physics, chemistry, biology etc).

It doesn’t feel right. I want to become a teacher but I’m so f****** tired. I don’t even know anymore why I’m doing all this s***. Why I’m not even trying.

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