I have always had a dramatic flair when I speak, at times just to get people’s attention…but when I was younger and dumber at 16/17 I used the word R*** inappropriately at a fancy restaurant dinner with a long table full of adults I didn’t really know including the mother of the girl I cracked the joke to. I’ve never committed close to such an act but have felt guilty about it as though I did and that was 14 years ago. I still want to blurt it out so someone can slap me and in effect out of my system..
