Some years ago when I was around 6-7 years old and we were still living in our old house, one of my cousin came to visit and as kid we spent most of that evening playing but after some while we got bored and decided to watch tv. We were going through the channels trying to find something to watch, we couldn’t find any cartoons to watch so I told my cousin that maybe we must find something else to do but he said that he knew one channel that had something very interesting for us to watch and he took the tv remote from me and picked a channel that was showing p***. Him being a boy and some years older than me was starting to find p*** interesting yet at the time me not understing much about what was happening didn’t really understood what he found interesting in them. But I have to confess that I got intrigued with the body of the female pornostar she had big breast(Something that of course I hadn’t developed at that time being kid) and also the show being p**** she was naked and I thought that she was really beautiful and I felt weird staring at her naked body. Of course we didn’t watch the whole movie because my older brother caught us watching it and turned off the tv and yelled at us not to watch shows like that ever again. But since then and as the years passed I started getting more interested about the body of a mature woman. At that time of course not having the knowledge for this stuff and the sources I didn’t search it any further. When I was 10 years old while searching for something in my room I discovered my brother’s p**** stack and my interest rose again. The first 2 years secretly when my brother wasn’t at home at my parents where in the other rooms I isolated my self in my room and I would go throught his p**** magazines and stare at the women still feeling the same way i felt the first time seeing a naked mature woman. One time I got caught by my father and when he asked me where did I find the magazine I lied and told him that I just had found it while looking for my doll. My father believed me so when my brother returned that day at home he had a big discussion with him and told him to throw them away and he did but he kept the CD. Something that I found out by luck and the same routine that I had with the magazines started to happened with the CD too when I started to use the computer.
Since then I still watch p*** now that I have grown. I’m still interested in women and even though I haven’t been in a relationship yet I think that I’m bi. No one knows that I am interested in women and more specifically the lady parts. I don’t know if I ever get in relationship with another woman and I can’t easily imagine my self being in one but as I mentioned before the lady parts intrigue me a lot. I’m still confused about the s******** part but I also can’t specify what was the feeling I had the first time I saw p*** and more especially a naked woman. First surely it was curiosity but after that I don’t know…… Sorry for my bad English It’s not my native language and I had to get it off my chest maybe someone can help me understand what I felt at the time and the situation now because I’m still very confused and I don’t have someone to discuss it with.

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