Don’t feel bad! Many have this problem. Perhaps you should try listening to porn subliminal on Youtube (to get rid of the addiction) from a subconscious stand point. Or even yourself, you could write down affirmations on paper every day relating to positively releasing the addiction and speaking the affirmations. It’s easier to change habits through the subconscious rather than the conscious! Subconscious mind is 95% of the brain. Our conscious thoughts and will power are only 5% essentially, so it can be very hard from attempting to change it through the conscious part of the brain!