I’m in love, never been in love never even allowed myself to even think about being in love. This is my first love though I can’t even say he’s mine. He’s not my first love he’s the first I have loved. I wish he never said he liked me back it would have been so much easier if he said there wasn’t feelings because now I’m here left to wonder why he won’t make me his. U say u like me but don’t do anything about it. There’s so many other girls in the picture it kills me. I’m jealous of everyone and everything the minion feel lower than someone my mood will completely switch and I’m ashamed of it. I hate this feeling “love” it’s horrible anxiousness, questioning urself so often. The fact that I can’t control it hurts too I don’t want to love him.
