My partner and I have been together since 11 years and in a monogamous relationship. He’s always been very clear about the fact that he was excited about me going with other people (I like both males and females).
I’ve never really acted on this desire, except posting (very) s*** pics on websites without my face, or having a clearly n*** snapchat. But never with my face and always virtual.
Time has passed and I like to flirt with people. I’ve always been a bit naughty I guess, but never quite felt like it could go anywhere, since a part of me is convinced I’m clearly not desirable enough to find even a one night stand. I’ve been rejected in the past, but it’s been so long. I feel like I don’t have the tools for all this IRL.
At this point, I’m too afraid to try and find hookups, even with apps… I guess I don’t want to feel the rejection. But at the same time… Excited about a potential “win”.
