I have a crush on my girl best friend who just broke up with her boyfriend due to his family issues getting in the way with their relationship. She also jokes about liking me back, which definitely doesn’t help with my feelings, but she still loves her boyfriend!

I love her to death and I can’t help except think about her being in a relationship with her. Some of them aren’t holy, I have to admit, but it gets worse. I sometimes bite my arms when I am bored in my room or when watching a movie alone and when I do, I start to think about her. Now, it’s become a habit that I bite my arms or use my nails to mimic biting on my neck, shoulders and legs, which I can’t reach with my mouth. I feel so dirty, but I need to get it off my chest somehow. I have no plan on telling her anytime soon, but I just needed to tell someone that doesn’t know me.