i (15 ftm) had a w******** about my older cousin (23 m) and i cant stop thinking about it and him, the dream was weird and included him forcing himself onto me, but ever since then i cant help but think about him f****** me and even c****** inside of me, ive never wanted kids but the taboo of it just sounds so arousing to me, but i dont know what to do, i really enjoy just spending time with him in general, but recently everytime im near him i feel aroused and cant stop dirty thoughts i have about him touching me inappropriately. he’s single too so i dont even have that guilt.