After 50+ years living a heterosexual lie, I’ve decided I’m actually gay and for black men. I’ve given dozens of BJs to BBC and I swallow every yummy drop. Now I fantasize about getting intimate with a black man and showering and all. I really want to try being a bottom. I can’t stop thinking about touching a naked black man and kissing him all over. I want to lose myself in a totally g****** session and just let it all go and experience total g****** extasy and have this be my new reality. I love a flat stomach and am so ready to just be into men. Good God I want to be with men so bad.