I want to starve myself until I look so thin that it worries people. And for those who try to help me, I will throw it back in their face how they never wanted to help me-and some encouraged-my eating disorder, because I’m fat. Like, oh, I wasn’t worth anything as a person when I weighed 170 pounds? And I want them to hurt. I want them to feel guilty and hate themselves, develop self-harm tendencies. I want them to HURT. I want everyone who was complicit in how I was treated just because I was fat to HURT.