When a character in a smartphone game asked me what makes me happy, I drew a p****. It may sound silly but I really need a d***…

Yesterday I daydreamed of having a husband and having perverted s** with him. We’d use condoms, then do it b*******, which I like the most. At one point I imagined him telling me we had to make sure I don’t get pregnant, so he pulls out. But afterwards I beg him to c** inside and he tells me I’d have to have an abortion in that case, and I say “yes” (and I almost came). I moaned as I was laying on the couch, my mom was in the room so she heard me moaning.

Thinking back, that fantasy was pretty sick. Abortion in marriage just because; that’s so fucked up. And for some reason, my p**** is wet now and it’s throbbing. I’m ashamed of my thoughts. I want to cry.

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