I was raped as a kid and my brain formed a s***** fetish to it over time. Now as an adult, I want to be molested by a p*** who thinks I’m a kid. I hate pedos but I want one to f*** me.

I have several different fantasies where someone molests me, with them manipulating me, forcing me, or teaching me how to have s**. I want it with mature women and younger men.

A mother would act kind to me, but slowly manipulate me into s***** scenarios, pretending she was teaching me how to be a good boy.
A teacher would use her authoritative power over me and force me to do what she wants until she cums, and then I’d have to pretend nothing happened.
A situation where she teaches me how to kiss. She slowly gets me addicted to her kissing to where every day we would make out, desperately rubbing our tongues together but nothing further.

A groomer would be a pathetic man who can’t get with anyone his age, so he turns to kids to try to get his d*** wet. He would be creepy the whole time and try to act out his s****/Loli h***** fantasies with me.
A brotherly figure would be an example of me asking him about kissing and him just taking advantage of the situation. He’d just teach me how to kiss and j*******, and eventually he’d f*** me.

Going back to them again and again, because it felt good.

I want it so bad and want to know how I can get a creep to defile me. I look very young and I’m very short for an adult so I’m hoping someone has the courage to take advantage of me and manipulate me into their perverted fantasy. Especially from a woman. I’ll struggle and pretend to hate it if they want, I’ll play an innocent, pure untouched virgin, a kid who’s simply just curious about kissing who they take advantage of, or a stupid kid who doesn’t know any better and encourages it cuz it feels good.

And I don’t want them to think I’m pretending to be a kid like that daddy/mommy/caregiver fetish, I want them to to think they are actually commiting a crime and a taboo act. It’s thrilling to me to imagine someone unable to hold back from their fantasy, and the excitement they would get from finally acting it out.

Their heart pounding as their sweaty hands g**** forbidden areas. They tremble in excitement and move so carefully, yet sloppy as they can’t control themselves. The innocence in their hands was being tainted by them, every first was going to them. First kiss, first tongue kiss, first g****, first time touching down there, first o*****.

What gets me most excited is that it would be my fault. I would encourage them to take advantage of me, just because it feels good and I don’t know any better. I would be too much of a little s***. It’s sickly thrilling.