I’m a man 20 years old and I’m s******* attracted to my younger 12 year old cousin Matthew. I’ve been attracted to young boys (and men) since puberty. Matthew is so cute, affectionate and sweet with beautiful big blue eyes and a gorgeous smile. He likes being shirtless a lot and this gives me the opportunity to admire his thin, smooth, gorgeous young body. I m********* about him a lot, fantasizing about performing oral s** on the boy, having him s*** my d*** and f**king the boy. He wanted to skinny dip with me once at a lake and I had to decline because, as much as I wanted to see Matthew naked, to see his p**** and have him see me erect over him, I knew I would have molested him right then and there.