Im a teenage girl and for as long as I can remember ive always had a fetish for stomachs and doctors. I dont even get s******* aroused by it at all, i just find it to be strangely romantic. Like I have this recurring fantasy where a girl (points if shes petite) somehow gets shot/stabbed/otherwise harmed in her stomach and her male romantic interest has to carry her to safety and tend to her wounds. I even imagine him holding her down as he applies the anesthetic to the wound and she screams in pain as it starts to burn, or he injects her with painkillers or puts an anesthisia mask on her face. I especially like it when the male love interest is usually a cold/masculine dude who doesnt show much emotion but is showing an unusual level of tenderness towards the female love interest as he helps her. IDK, its like a mixture of b******, submission and d*********, and torture, but it also manages to be romantic because it shows that the guy cares enough about the girl that he would go through all that just to save her. And the weird thing is, its always relatively nonsexual parts of the body like her thighs or stomach. NEVER genetalia. For some reason things like enemas and stuff are immensely cringey to me and they dont come off as being romantic or even remotely arousing. Anyway, thats is the main fantasy, but there’s more that branch off of that one, like the labrat/experiment where a girl is strapped to a table or otherwise restrained somehow while the male character performs medical experiments on her, or the examination one where the guy will look at her teeth/the back of her throat, her neck, legs etc. like shes a livestock animal. In this one the girl is always partially, or entirely naked while the guy is fully clothed. Its also just the instruments that they use in general, like the plastic gloves, surgical masks,knives, syringes especially , and those popsical stick thingies.

Anyway, im immensely ashamed and embarrassed by this fetish and i have no idea where it came from. The fascination with medical instruments started before I even knew what s** was and i used to do things like playing doctor with my stuffed animals and stuff. I blush with embarrassment every time i see a medical scene on tv with other people present (i dont know if this is normal or not) and am extremely uncomfortable and embarrassed to go to the doctor. Ive only ever told one person about it, and im scared that everyone else knows but theyre just keeping it secret from me.

Is there anyone else who has this fetish?? And is it weird or is it somewhat normal? (Also please dont send me anything gross. Im underage)