I’ve been best friends with this boy since 3rd grade, I’ve liked him since 5th and I’ve loved him endlessly, I know or at least knew he liked me at one point, but yesterday we ended up having s** on my other friends bed. The worse part is he has a girlfriend. I don’t know how they are but everytime I see then together she’s angry and he’s faking a smile. And when we did do it it felt special like I actually felt wanted. We looked in each other’s eyes and he kissed me. He held me and made me feel important. I’m absolutely head over heels for him but… he says that we should forget it happened. I get why but I hate that I have to accept it. Ive wanted him for so long. And when we did it we never said I love all we said was I missed you. I missed us.