I want to get raped. People will call me disgusting and disrespectful of actual r*** victims and that i don’t actually want to get raped and that i shouldn’t wish this upon myself. But i do. I do want to get raped. So much that It’s driving me insane! I keep fantasizing it whenever i’m out. I keep fantasizing that someone will kidnap me and take me to some place secluded where they’d f*** my brains out. Whenever i ride an uber alone i always imagine how great it’d be if they just sold me off to some fucked up person who’d just f*** me then throw me out. And no. I don’t want to simply have s** or be dominated. I want people who i have no idea who they are to force themselves on me. I want to be completely t****** with my legs spread wide open for everyone to see. I want to be humiliated and used simply for their personal pleasure..i want it so much it hurts! Normal s** and roleplay doesn’t do it for me. I don’t think anything will except r***. It’s driving me insane. I think about it everyday. The possibilities. What my life would be like if i was just kidnapped and just used. I wish for it to happen to me everyday.