I’ve had a bit of a… rough childhood, I got into a bad relationship, with a human being that messed up a crucial part of my childhood…

I had learned about m*********** only maybe 2 years ago (im 18) So recently, I started visiting a therapist. He is this really well rounded, gentle and sweet, really good looking guy, tall and great built, he has these strict striking blue eyes. Whenever we meet, there is a lot of chemistry but we don’t really talk about anything related to s**. Not yet. There was this one time, we were talking and he asked me if I fantasized. Nothing more. I said, yes of course, and looked him in the eyes, and what I saw there was undivided attention and something that told me there is a lot built up inside of them. So i love seeing him, i enjoy talking to him, his a great professional, helped me out a lot, he even keeps talking to me over time, if there is no one after me. there is this other part of me that is growing incredibly fond of him. He happens to have a lot of things I would like and respect in a man, and we are also electric when we touch, (he is a body psycho therapist). I’m starting to wonder, when is me m*********** over thoughts of him going to escalate into a full blown love or obesession and end up ruining this beautiful bond we managed to make?