I’m a male in my 30s, and I’ve had a couple of scares with testicular cancer. I’ve had multiple surgeries and now I’m physically “null.” I no longer have a p**** or testicles. I now only have a small hole I urinate from. I’m lucky that the scarring has been minimal, so it’s fairly smooth there and what little scarring is there is hidden by my p**** – and I maintain a bush.

I was fairly depressed about it for a long time, even though I was glad to have survived the cancer. I’m grateful absolutely to be healthy again. But the little s** I did have before I lost the ability weighs on me all the time. I miss f******. I miss having a c*** to stroke.

I haven’t mentioned this to my doctors yet, but lately I’m having fantasies about having a v***** surgically installed. I had bi tendencies before, but didn’t enjoy being penetrated anally, though I tended to swing bottom with men.

I haven’t researched it yet, but I’m wondering if any doctor would/could ethically do such a surgery. I don’t want to be female. I want to remain male in appearance, but have a v***** that a lover could use to f*** and c** inside. I still wouldn’t be able to o*****, but I could at least engage in the physical act. It’s just something I think about a lot lately.