I have been in love with the same guy since I was 16. Sadly, he got into a relationship with one of my friends. So, I shut down any feelings that I have for him. So, we graduated from high school and I found out that he got into the same college as I do. Still, I ignore it because i know he is in a committed relationship. However, not long after that, I found out that he broke up with his girlfriend. So I thought, this is it, this is my chance, it was fate that brought us together that we both enrolled in the same college. But again, I was too late. He ended up dating AGAIN one of my friends. I was devastated. It was never meant to be. He will always look at me as his friend. This was it, or so I thought. We graduated and I found out later that we both will take the same course in our degree and we both got into the same college again. I cannot run from him. How can I move on if he is always in front of me?!!! It’s degree and I just can’t deal with him anymore, so I completely shut him down and I talk to him only when it is necessary so that I won’t fall in love with him all over again. For a second there, I did move on, I stopped thinking about him, although I still have butterflies if I ever saw him in a cute outfit. I am 22 now and I am currently doing my internship. Funny thing, he is also in the same internship programme. I don’t know why I cannot run away from him. Still, I thought that I have completely moved on from him. So, I thought nothing will happen between him and I during this internship. I will never fall for him. Boy was I wrong. During the internship, we got put in the same team so obviously I cannot escape from him. We got closer each day , talked to each other every single day and laughed with each other every day.I failed myself cause I am head over heels for him all over again. But the thing is, he has a girlfriend, a serious girlfriend. I need to stop having this feeling for him.
