I am fascinated by teen pregnancy
What is wrong with me? I’m almost 40! I desire to get a teenage girl pregnant again very badly… I was 25 at the time and dating a freshman in college who had just turned 18… we started dating her senior year of high school when she was 17… when I was her teacher… she got pregnant spring of her freshman year and wanted to keep the baby but I made her get an abortion
The abortion was a terrible mistake and the guilt of the sin has haunted me ever since then as I know I am Doomed to go to Hell
But
A fetish and fascination with teen pregnancy has persisted for me ever since then…. I had to leave teaching because I couldn’t keep my hands off the young girls and eventually I was afraid I’d get caught and sent to jail… I have a regular office job now and I haven’t put my hands on a teenage girl in 6 years… which is the statute of limitations in Arkansas … but I still pine for young teenage girls even as I get older and older …. mainly because I want them pregnant
My teenage pregnancy fetish has festered and grown worse. I now actively desire for girls to get pregnant as teenagers – even though it’s always a moving goal post for me. but I know it’s an elusive and dangerous cycle
Is this normal? Is this ok for me to want?
Not just for myself – but I actively WANT other teenage girls to get pregnant!
Any teenage girl I see I think: wouldn’t it be better if she was pregnant!
When I see a young teenage girl who is pregnant I am floored and I adore her. It’s hard to know for sure, but I hope it didn’t look odd for a middle aged man like me (I’m nearly 40 but I look much much older due to hard living and hard drinking as a chronic alcoholic and a longtime heavy cigarette smoker, I could easily pass for 45 to 50+)
It seemed so peculiar for Me to love all pregnant teenage girls… but then I started reading about it online
In some way, isn’t older men with teenage girls what nature intended?isnt that what evolution pushed humanity towards?
For men to be older and established and women to be young teens with maximum fertility? I’m established now. I have a steady job and an apartment and a paid for car and all that. It’s evolutionary biology – I’m established and can provide for children – therefor it makes sense for a young fertile teenage girl to have children with me
Wasn’t It normal in the Bible?
Wasn’t it normal even until the late 1800s? I did some genealogy online, and found an ancestor of mine who married at 33, to a 16 year old girl and then when she died giving birth to their 3rd child in 1880, he remarried the next year at age 39 to a 15 year old girl and they had 6 more children
Apparently that was totally normal back then… everyone’s family is going to have instances of guys in their 30s or 40s marrying and having children with 15 year old girls …
in fact it’s hard to find any records from the 1800s of men who weren’t having children with women between the ages of 15 to 19, at least the first children, and the women then had children throughout the rest of their twenties – but they always started with teenage pregnancy
So what changed? Why were we allowed to have children with teenage girls for hundreds or thousands of years
Now suddenly both evolution and the Bible are wrong?