I’m 14 and really really REALLY want to f*** my boyfriend but our parent’s would kill us and I haven’t even seen his d*** in person yet. He’s sent a d*** pic but from the angle he sent it I couldn’t see it that well. We made out once and we were grinding and from what it felt like, his d*** was HUGE and now every time I m********* I think about us f******. I feel sickened about this because I don’t want him to know and I’m scared if he knows I fantasize about him he’d think I’m a weirdo and leave me.